it's tough

Lord, i know i shouldn't be running away from you..
Lord, i know i should face certain difficulties in the face..or at least learn to handle it..

Lord, it's tough...i know You know that i know You know that it's tough (not trying to be funny here but it's really the fact)

sigh..i hate to say this but i'm a failure..(at this point i remember this) but i choose to stay at this state..then i'm a REAL failure..how can i pick myself up? how?!

oh God, i'm weary of running..the things i do don't have your blessings....or at least how it seems..

Lord, i love You!