WHY!?

:/ no..not why i didn't update my blog for so long but why?! why is it that i'm feeling so lost?! not lost in an island but lost! Lost inside myself..i'm serving Him and He asks me to serve His people. this is a people business and it's so not easy. just because you carry a title, the pressure is on!

Lord, i'm crying out to you in my heart!
I cry inside but i smile outside,
I tried treating others like how You did,
and I realise it's not easy to be You!

I can feel as though i'm right by your side when you are alone in the garden..Lord! not my will be done but Yours! i can do nothing so please take over! not taking over the material chores but my feelings, emotions and reactions...